I have worn contacts since the fifth grade. I suppose I would be a good candidate for LASIK surgery, but I rather like that because of their presence an accidental jab in the eye with mascara is rendered completely painless. That probably sounds extremely silly, but I am not in the mood to care. As much as I love that my little eye discs save me from make-up trauma, they are in a near constant state of fuzziness these days.
It's the crying. My friend's funeral. Baby Cora. Baby Grace. That little girl missing in Florida.
I want to write something funny.
I want to write something fun.
I want to be excited about some new clothes or some long-wearing, non-drying lipstick.
I want to write a BIG thank you note to Sasha for her techy expertise. I am now lipstickatthemailbox.com.
I want to gush about how totally addicted I am to all things Twilight.
I want to brag about how Jillian's Thirty Day Shred is getting easier.
I don't have it in me. I am grieving for people I know and even people I don't. My heart feels raw and exposed. I don't like it.
Who doesn't prefer to glide through the day with light-hearted, pseudo-concerns? It's easy. It even feels real. That is until something truly real grabs your heart and forces you to gaze into the blinding light of pain and grief.
7 comments:
yea, I can't believe there is another missing child...maybe i need to move away from Orlando!!
This post is so true. You expressed it beautifully. Thanks. xoxo
It's hard sometimes to post about light hearted things when you have so much heavy things on your mind.
I wish I knew what to say, my dear. I'm crying with you and for you - it's difficult to care and feel so much. What a beautiful, sensitive soul you are.
You have such a big heart!
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your friend. This was a beautifully written post. Take care and keep smiling Lipstick! OXO
I am obsessed w/ the Twilight series (or my inner tween is... either way). Xoxo-BLC
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